All my life You have been faithful.

I love You, Lord

For Your mercy never fails me

All my days, I’ve been held in Your hands

From the moment that I wake up

Until I lay my head

Oh, I will sing of the goodness of God

One of the most beautiful things about coming to Christ is looking back and seeing all the ways He was present and working in my life before I knew Him. Even though I never gave Him my attention, His attention was always on me. And no matter what I did to try and live a life where God didn’t exist, I could never shake the feeling that He was always in the room with me, watching from a distance.

I never saw my painful experiences and dark seasons as something that “God allowed,” but as the result of sinful human choices (both mine and others). God is good, and His goodness led me to repentance. He is not the one who allowed darkness in my life–He is the one who set me free from it.

I love Your voice

You have led me through the fire

In my darkest night You were close like no other

I’ve known You as a Father

I’ve known You as a Friend

And I have lived in the goodness of God

When I was in the hospital suffering from complications due to Crohn’s disease (fast heart rate, difficulty breathing, malnutrition, etc.), every night was scary, and I struggled to sleep. Thankfully, my dad slept in my hospital room with me every night–I don’t know how I would have survived that experience without him.

Just like my earthly father was in the hospital room with me, my heavenly Father was always there. As frightening and dark as that time in my life was, it was also a time when God opened my eyes to how loved I really was. I was so depressed that I thought no one would care if I died, but the outpouring of love and prayers from the people in my life woke me up to the truth…

I am loved, and my life is worth living.

Your goodness is running after me

With my life laid down, I surrender now

I give You everything.

Because all my life You have been faithful

And all my life You have been so, so good

With every breath that I am able

Oh, I will sing of the goodness of God

No matter what choices I have made and mistakes I still make, You are always faithful. I know You will never give up on me, and every good thing in my life was and is because of You. Thank You for giving me another year of life–I will never stop sharing Your goodness with others.

Lyrics are from the song Goodness of God by Jenn Johnson.